I spin into chaos
floating and lost
without control
life falls around me
in confetti-like chunks
unattainable
indiscernable
colors--bright and dull--
blurred memories
blunted moments
felted fingertips
once uniquely ridged
in distant time
on former body
of former life-breath
left silently behind
death remembers
what existence forgot
when eyelids blinking
became a burden
and heart beating
became a strain
and when both were ended
without apology
or sad explanation